i'm in sch now doing nothing cause sch ended and i have cca so cant go home....
this few weeks nothing much happen ... yesterday i went to visit my grand ma than i realise how long i haven visited her must visit her soon...
there was a day when my friend and i was talking .... she was saying that i had too much things and there isnt time for sch work and i agree with her so i decided that mon will be cca and tue i will go home and do my work ... wed i will also do what i haven done finish since i take like hours to draw one thing and i still o my teacher alot of work... thurs the netball teacher keep canceling the training so i don think i going to join netball... fri i finish up what i have to hand in the next week.... sat will be a day for my parents if they want to go out or something like buying me more clothes.... sun will be a day for GOD .... have meetings and stuff....
i realise i'm back to the susanna that other than studies i'm too busy for other things... the only different is that i have a church group that help me find got throught Mary.... but i don know if its helping... i haven found myself yet and how m i suppose to find GOD???
may be people will say your still young and there is alot of thing u wont know now... its right but when will the time be rip when i spread out my wings and fly ??? when will i find GOD and myself??? when will every thing end ??? its not up to me to decide than....
i don know why i took animation.... since i know i'm bad at drawing y did i bother to take this course... when i was drawing for the intake i told GOD this if u want me to be in this course than u let me pass the interview if not i wont mind taking another course... it turn out he want me to take this course... now i'm having lots and lots of homework and i'm not done any yet course i couldnt draw it nice or look a like..............
i could flare up any min... so when i get myself out of the house i try to enjoy and not think of things... but when i'm alone it just remine me of things that are undone not only homework but other things too.... m i stupid??? i just cant get things out of the freaking mind ......... i hate to choose things.... always turn out wrong..........
i hate it hate it ..... i cant stand it .......... screaming at the computer isnt any good .... haiz.......
many things has gone by this few days.... the youth rally can say it was good ... most things went to plan... had alot of pratices... now things are back to normal not much things has gone sec, pri, jc and poly are having holidays and i'm stuck in sch doing boring stuff...
nothing much has happen ... yesterday went to amanda's house to eat godma food... 2day had the p.i.e was ask to build a tower with some things... my group was the 2nd and was the most stable one....
its been two to three months in ite and i'm still nt use to life there...
i'm very tired just came home not long ago ... had the practice for the youth rally .... had to move things here and there... tired than don know y 2day got no strength to do things...
sat had nothing to do no one ask me out so i took the initiative to ask people out ... but turn out every one ask not free or not do want to go out.... i thought nvm i can enjoy the house for one whole day with my mum since she is not going out... while watching tv my er kor pass me his phone say its was benny .... than in the end had to help to move the props to youth center cause ihm hall have masses lazy to write the whole story....after that went to isis house to do the spiritural input thing la did until end up watching tv and talk .... went home about 11pm ... hehe....
last week my teach cancel the netball again so that was 2 weeks without training.... now i have floorball 2 day a week the worst thing is that on tue training is from 7.30 to 9.30 that is like very tiring la..... but i guess i can handle it if i cant than we see when it happen....
wed was ash wed the start of lent... lent this year what will i do ??? don know see lor...
fri had some stupit talk of the rules of floorball... wast my time only so boring they talk until i want to slp .... just started and my friend almost fall a slp hehe.... we watch some movie also the bridal crops or some thing... i and my friend fell aslp while watching .... ok my life is boring....
this week is another dying week i don know if u will see me still a live a not.... mon got floorball until 7 ... tue got floorball again finish at 9.30.... wed don know is i'm going roller blading or cycling with my classmate anot... thur got netball but don know cancelle anot than there is also pratice for the youth rally... haiz don know which one to go... fri got youth rally pratice again ... sat is youth rally itself... sure end very late one haiz.... sun got acies.... than after that have a wedding dinner....
can susanna soon last this week ???
2day during the youth rally practice they had this spritural thing and they ask us this question... y did we do this ?? y did we want to come to help ??? well for me y did i do this i also don really know i think its god calls and i'm just answering it.... the 2th question ... i was called to help so help lor hehe....
ok i'm done for now .... see u people in YOUTH RALLY!!!!
