Monday, November 27, 2006
its life....
well i finally change my blog skin hehe... though the music don know why cannot play but i still like that background...i shell do a thank u list before sharing about the leadership camp...thank God for everything he did in my lifethank my family for teaching me things...thank my friends for being there for me thank my group for giving me knowledgethank jie for teaching me more about God and bring me to himthank Clare for listening to my problems and understanding methank Benny for the late night msg and sharing with me stuffthank Momo for just being there when i needed your presencethank Sebby for leading me and stuffthank isis for make my life full of funthank amanda for being my bestest friend i could ever havethank mac for your problems thank cam for the happinessthank trudy, germaine for the fun timesthank gareth for the listening earand the list goes on Thank Every One for reading this blogwell the camp started on fri night with a game called Have u ever ?? i learn alot form itthan had a session with a pic of our late pope clinging to the cross... 3 things praise him aloud. take codes from the bible and lastly CLING TO GOD!!!than had lots of crape with sebby, isis, amanda, christina, ben tan and cant remember his name...thats the first day....secound day we had scripture reading steps to read the Word... God speak to us throught the bible... we had group sharing ... than had lunch... after lunch we had "open your heart to God" when fr fred pray over us telling us How Much God Loves us... i felt God at that very moment felt he was there listening to me... after that was games ... than bath time... than dinner... next we were ask to list a grace than we wanted from God... Fr fred use those graces to pray over the oil and bless us with it... than it was bed time but there wasn't going to be light out.... well chat with clare and gareth.... than me and clare went over to con room cause clare wants to write letters but the girls dom was not very quite so ya i accompay her ... listen to con telling momo how legion was and things... well i learn alot from con that night ... listening to all the moments and problems... than went over to find amanda than went back to the girls dom ... awhile in the dom clare came in than all the girls was talking and chating haha it was fun hehe ... sry clare ....third dayeveryone tired but i still had energy had to pack up than had sessions and than prepare for mass ... during thanks giving we had sharing about the camp... than it was time to go home... the lectors, the legion(ac),the alter boys,2 choir girls and 1Mm went to vivo to have dinner at the roof top ... some had bk others had cows jr... than played games haha ok la quite fun la.... than i turn to emo .... just remember that i had lots of work to do ya... thank the three people who msg me that night.... i finally sumit one of my work which is left with one more and my exam... i need a place to study other than home....well that should be all .... thank u for your patience.... please tag my blog its quite deadthere is more hunger in the world for love and appreication than for bread
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
....friends....sch...world ??
this few days isn't as bad cause i busy with sch work other than the stress to complete before camp... well my class has become around 35 people to around 30 and now more people are quiting y ??? i also don know ... to me i did thought of this question of quiting my course but than again i went through so many assigments and late nights stress and i give up hope on quiting ... my as well finish this course and get into poly .... preservance is the key i think ... well watever just have a cert for show also can lor .... beside i don really have a future so ya take one step at a time lor or just do wat i need to do and the rest is up to God to do it...
last week i was very bored and up sad .... well some idiot ask me out and in the end in the afternoon than tell me not free watever man luckly he didn tell me where to meet and time... than some one ps me the very next day i ended up eating cup noodles ... than again i told my classmates that i wanted to watch flash away with them and ya they ended up watching it without me stupid right.... well i ask someone out she wanted to cancel her meeting so i said nvm well that one i cant blame cause i msg the night before only well that week is a sucky week ... i always wonder when my friends need anything i will always do my best even though i don want to do anything but when i need someone i couldn find any ... y is it that only when i really upset or something than there is concern??? than when i just want people to be around me there wont be ... what kind of world is this ???? wat kind of life do i have ???
well almost everyone is having their holidays now and i stuck in sch doing lots of project... i have 2 projects and their dateline are on the same date which is 27 nov and i left with 8 days to finish it. got to complete it before the camp cause i don want to worry anything during the camp... its a camp that i want to put all my heart and soul to it and those 3days are for God .... i might not bring any books to study cause firstly i said the 3 days are for God secondly it will only add weight to my bag and thirdly i doubt there might be time to study ... ya well i not thinking anything about the camp cause the only thing in my mind is my stupid projects and that i need to finish it within 8 days .... i doubt that i might have any energy to do when i come home and beside the dateline is the next day ya....
one thing that is good so far is that my guitar is tune and that when i'm tired bored or any thing can play it ...its the best that actually happen so far ... well my parents are not home yet every other person in the house hold other than me are slping ya this family is just like it has use to be a hotel when its night or when u tired u slp other than that i doubt that anyone will be at home... which is good and bad ... good i can play music as loudly as i want and play my guitar without any one laughting... bad cause no one share any problem with any one like me i wont look for anyone of them if i'm in depresstion or stress or anything.... its just family .... no one cares .... sometimes i wish i could grow up soon to leave this place and go overseas leaving this place with all the hurt and suffering and stuff... but on the other side its a place where i grow up and my birth place and family and friends... haiz... life have to decide what to do .... well the easy way of thinking live now and let God do the rest only he knows wat i'm going to become and when i will die and stuff so shouldn think so much ....
well i was thinking dec will be a month when 2 of my pillar wont be around the two that have given me advice and stuff wont be around ... well one is going overseas for 3weeks and the other will be in army ... so in dec must be indepandent ... well i also don know what will be install for me this dec so all i have to do is prepare for the worst to come .... well i believe that if i can be happy for this month i can over come alot of things on my own ... which i think i can i probably stay at home and be emo...
well i will end here i wont know when is the next time i will update may be when mac ask me to update or somthing .....
