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Sunday, July 29, 2007

PAIN!!!!

Each player of this game starts off with TEN weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own TEN weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose SIX people to be tagged and list their names. NO TAG BACKS.

1) i still slp with my little boster

2) i'm not scared of any insects so far

3) i don really like home

4) i use to bit my nail until sec 2 or is it 3 hmm...

5) i use to be the cry baby of the family

6) i use to be skinny and small but ya i think i ate too much ...

7) i'm not scared of scary movies but i'll laugh cause ppl scream hehe

8) i have 3 beautiful and brainy dears who are so much smarter than me

9) i had 1 pet in my life so far and apperently he die sobsob :( i still miss him

10) i don like to eat tomato the veg at all!!!

hmm my six ppl ... mac, iggy, marcus tan, amanda lim, jesmine, kelynn

hmm well i haven been slping well for the last few days.. firstly thurs had to rush my work cause fri had presentation than ya last min have to do the power point slides ya but ok la... than fri was presentation was so scared la but all my friends were like saying i not scared not afraid or anything but i did help my teammates with the presentation than had gastric la went home and eat med and then went to slp.. wake up have stomach ach la stupid don know wat i eat than went mall to return book and look 4 mac.. went to Godma's place to find jacob and give him my s.h.e ticket... ya than went to seletar there like the place the wind was so cool... went home couldn slp at all la gastric was so pain i think i fell aslp but keep waking up cause stomach pain ah!!!... work up and went to see the doc gave me some med work 4 awhile

went to science center on sat was fun but after awhile i couldn take it too weak i guess the med did work 4 awhile but i felt pain and weak but than went to matt house eat a few food than take med... well i took alcohol and guess wat than night cannot slp again cause was in pain again.... ah!! 2day still like tat la its like on off thing lor.. sian... pain la... and now i'm having both gastric and headach ah!!! wat wrong with me ? all the sickness sian.. should i see the doc ?? hmm see how tml may be see may be not....

hmm well alot of things have been going on this few weeks i'm not sure if i grow more mature of wat just tat i just think alot and sometimes its good some times its bad i'm also not sure so ya so far i'm quite happy with things i guess but i learn to look away i guess... yup too pain to think of wat to say so ya ...

# 11:25 PM

Thursday, July 19, 2007

HAPPY sa lala its so nice to be happy sa lala!!!!!

haha ok from my title u can tell i'm super happy y???
cause I PASS MY BTT!!!!! to think i fail 5 trail out of 6 i still can pass haha
was kind of stress cause firstly taking with my brother who didn do any trail self study i think
secondly i heard alot of ppl fail their first time haha i pass yeah!!! don need to pay $6 bucks hehe

yup yup!! cant say how happy i am this is like the happiest thing happening this few weeks la... and GOD IS SO GOOD !!!! I LOVE HIM MAN !! HE ROCK MY WORLD!!!!

well this week move so fast every thing just pass so fast the next thing i know its night and have to slp to wake up for lesson the next day... well i can say things are doing fine for me and i'm happy just tat there are some stuff that will actually pull my mood down... not thinking about it was fine just tat i'll be pull back to it and ask to solve it. trying to run away from it but too many ppl ask me to solve it for the sake of me and the other party haiz...
well i have a friend who actually went through almost the same thing as me just tat hers i worst than mine. she almost lose her grandma... doc say one of her grandma ( don know which side) 2 wks to live just than the other grandma falls ill almost lose her too just nice the abulance came in time. thank God both are alright for now. she is ill too heard she just came from hospital and is going back again from sch... haiz... well all i can say to her is pray and hope things will be better... haiz....
sch is boring other than friends and crap haha its fun when all my friends are craping and suaing each other see the enjoyment haha... but its cool man...
well tml is going to be a long long long day was suppose to be watching movie with my movie gang but than isis wants to meet up the band for practice so ya got to cancel them so sad sob sob was looking forward for it to hear kevin scream haha!!! HAHA ya and the amandas scream haha that will be so fun la just tat without me only... well than after band got to meet up with a friend ya and sch ends at 6 ah!!! tired going to be a tiring day... sat is NYC cant wait for GROUP 5 YEAH!!! yup yup

yeah!! i offically got Loser plate!!!!

thank u amanda!! for the msg and its great to be able to talk to u again!! haha i'm happy getting the connection!!!
Thank u Mac for talking to me scolding me getting me back on track & P&W its fun with u learn so much stuff from u guys
thank u BENNY!!! thank u so much for always being there for me guiding me teaching me and showing me things new things there will be more things i need to learn from u thank u SO much
Thank u gareth thank u for listening to me remaining me things that i know thank u for just being u :)
Thank u Kevin:) haha thank u for planing stuff like the fri movie trips thank u for worrying about me thank u for talking to me online u like the only person who always talk to me online :) thank u for being so lovable just don learn too much from gareth can alrea one gareth is enough don want another one hehe :)
thank u Isis for listening and crapying around thank u for being so suppostive of watever i do:)
thank u Joel for saying things to let me learn and telling me u guys will be there when i need help :)
thank u Iz for attending mass with me:) haha i still o u and warm fuzzy
thank u SEBBY for always reading my blog buy not taging it hehe no la thank u for always worrying about us and always making time for us even thought we keep jacking u hehe:)
thank u andrea for trusting me with stuff and those wonderful poem
thank u barnard for the online encoragement and stop calling me ah ma
thank u miss camilla bimbo!!! for being so bimbo and taking one big round b4 going home hehe
thank u jasmine for the wonderful things we do during the camp and all the crapy stuff
thank u iggy for letting me bit u hehe
thank u elaine for being our sotong haha
thank u shi jia for all the "fish ball"
thank u kai chin for being our froggy hehe
thank u ying ying for being spider and always craying when not enough slp (don so stress ok?)
thank u vivenne for the walking fast like spider and for telling us stuff hehe
ok i'll end here the lists goes on... thank u every one for worrying about me :)

when things get out of hand i get the blame when things are in the right way u are happy but have u consider wat others are thinking?? there are so many ppl out there loving u but turn out to be hurt by u y do u keep thinking its others fault when u are the one in the wrong ?? y ??

# 11:44 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

feeling better...

hmm this few days i'm been feeling slightly better i think...well everyone has their problems even God i think... so ya

well but i have lots of ppl around me caring 4 me and i LOVE U GUYS!!!! i really do u guys know who u are worrying 4 me trying your best to help me i'm really greatful to have u guys i really care 4 u guys too....
i don know wat to say sch is still fun only still have lots of things to do and the new teacher is not very good... i have P.e tml and i also don like the teacher ... i'm going late 4 sch tml i don care beside i wont be e only one going to sch late tml...

well one thing tat i'm happy about is i finally broke the wall with someone!!! yeah!!! well tks to benny for leting know things thank u so much !!! well there is more things ahead and i hope u guys will pray for me ... hope God can help me!!!
well i don know wat else to say but ya i'll end here

# 10:42 PM

Saturday, July 14, 2007

hmm...

wa this is the end of my first week of sch...
i kind of like sch now more fun with all the crapy sotong eat froggy, froggy eat fishball, fishball sign contract with spider haha but in the end fishball still got bullied haha spider no use one only know how to stand there and laugh.. haha nice story haha....

well this week keep eating mac i like have it for most of the meals ah!!! going to be fat soon... kept going out with kai chin, elain, ying and shi jia so fun lor and also vivi all th gosip haha but also not all the time la talk about clothes shoes and bags... i also want to buy new bag and shoes ....

start of the week only stress so many things to do ... stupid resume suppose to pass up on fri but end up next week sian waste my time can slp but i chong homework than slp late now still tired... still have think of ideas for my furniture yet die next week still have to show neo sian... don want to join one than have to join... nvm i'll try my best...

2day also went for my e-trail btt test ah!!! did 3 test but end up failing all la!!!! dumb nvm still got tml trail all next week is my actual btt ah!!! better study study!!!! ah stress stress!!! ah!!! i want to scream!!!! hmmm this give me an idea i think i shell go to ponggol end if there is time... hehe or may be go novena not bad idea hehe ok got plans le.... see i can also go out on my own don need company... ok i'm talking crap!!!..... yup yup yupyup

so fast alrea one week gone le still got a few more weeks to the next holiday !!!! cant wait then i shell work and earn money $$$$ i need money $$$ hehe broke broke alrea i still need to buy myself a new phone!!!!....

haiz... its a few more weeks till you are gone should i or should i not? i feel u change u change too much than i only prefer the old u y change ? y ? haiz... i don know wat is my goal in life wats with u guys y are u all keep changing y ?? just went i settle down u all change ... haiz... i don like changes i hate it i really hate it!!!!! i hate u!!!!! i hate it i cant feel my sun any more u are like no long the sun of my live wat are u ?? the thunder that strick my heart with pain...

# 12:43 AM

Monday, July 09, 2007

start of something new

B.A.D 我的错

飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向
不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤
学会坚强
从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样
不会将心比心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤
没那种事
怎么做才能够停止
后悔竟伤你如此
不再放肆
为何总到失去才懂的难过
当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候
都是为我的错
错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

well sch finally started.... was half happy half sad about it....
met k.c, vivi, ying and elain at macs had breakfast there sch starts at 8 and we met at 8 so ya ... haha had a great laugh at macs ying say the cream help the tea to change colour haha... ya we were crapying all the way to sch... any after sch we went to suntac to shop not really shop la walk walk around ... but was quite cool la haha

oh ya i got bad my result and ya i didn do tat well and so does many ppl in my class haiz... don know if i can get into a poly ... don know wat will happen in the future... ya and we were talking with one of the guy in our class about how guys are more forturned than girls and ya lots of things like how to chase a girl and like how not to mistake things haha was fun la talk crap since can go home after taking our result and time table.... yup it was kind of cool just tat all of us were very tired haha

my timetable sucks la... any way tats wat i say every time ya this is my week
mon-8am to 6pm
tue- 1pm to 6pm
wed- 8am to 4pm
thurs- 8am to 11am
fri- 8am to 6pm

sucky right so stop complaining your timetable is sucky when mine is quite bad.... i have like 6pm almost every day la and still got lots of things to do and there are too much stuff on my mind....

tml can slp later yeah and i end sch late yeah.... so happy....
right....

i'm in a mess and i don know wat to do... i so mess up the only way out is for me to do it but wat is the it??? no one can save me .... oh man i'm just crap....... God knows.......

# 10:58 PM

Sunday, July 08, 2007

- no title-

hmmm....

my new word that i want to add in my life INDEPENDENT!!!!
i need to be more independent i cant keep relaying on others i need to grow up and some day every one will have to leave me so i need to be able to be strong on my own...

i found out really tat i'm not a person than can keep friendship alive... i guess i too tired to actually keep the friendship alive too tired to keep on wanting to keep it together or something... i guess i'm selfish... i'm human too!!

haiz... too bad many things are happening and part of them is my fault... part of my life i choose them to be tat way...

God help me!!!! God save your servant!!! I'm Crying out to u!!!!

haiz.... life is so hard well i know it will be harder but i choose this path and i really hope i can do it... God please guide me please be there to help me ...

well sat was ok i guess .... was presenter the first time i really hope tat the sec3 and 4 understood wat the message ... i hope i didn crap too much...
youth rally was ok i guess yup i was high at the beginning cause had mac there ... ya than had talks and stuff than quite boring after tat the blessed sarecment ya than went emo... well i wanted to high like every one else but i just don know y i cant .... well sry mac i was high at the end to high with u guys... so sry may be too tired also... yup yup...
well i guess i'll end here since i really don know wat i'm feeling now....

# 9:46 PM

Thursday, July 05, 2007

SAD!!! CRYING!!!!!

THE ONE (Shakira)

So I find a reason to shave my legs
Each single morning
So I count on someone on Friday nights
To take me dancing again
To church on Sundays
To plant more trees
And someday think of kids
Or maybe just save a little money

[Chorus:]
You're the one I need
The way back home is always long
But if you're close to me I'm holding on
You're the one I need
My real life has just begun
Cause there's nothing like your smile made of sun
In the world full of strangers
You're the one I know
So I learned to cook and finally lose
My kitchen phobia
And so I got the arms to cuddle in
When there's a ghost or a news
That brings insomnia
To buy more thongs
To write more happy songs
It always takes a little help from someone

[Chorus 2X]
You're the one I need
You're the one I need
Youre my (??) real life has just begun
You're the one I need
You're the one I need
Nothing like your smile made of sun
Nothing like your love
Nothing like your love
Nothing like your love

i'm really sorry too but i don know how to tell u ... there is alot to say but i don know how to phrase it and i don know if my heart is ready to say it .. all i can say is i'm sorry for wat happen...

# 10:59 PM

Monday, July 02, 2007

Sentosa ...

mac being buried

josh being buried

VIVO city

Goldfish josh

haha this mark i bit one hehe...

2day went to sentosa with mac, iggy. eugene, marcus tan and joshua

i realise going sentosa with right people will turn out alot of fun.... well i had alot of fun 2day and even got sun burn la... iggy crazy la with joshua bully mac and me lor... but was very fun lor we even played the ludge lor again... haha cause mac wants to play la... joshua i think u cant drive la block trafic only haha... notice all the photos don have me y ??? cause i camera woman hehe.. well took alot of photos but kind of lazy to upload all...

well i have been thinking alot lately... well i think i have been too self center and everything is like about me myself and i ... i shouldn be thinking this way cause i'm not the only one living in this world... sorry guys .... trying not to be emo....

m i childish ??? when will i grow up ?? when will i stop hurting people ?? when ??when will it end ??? when is my life going to change ???? haiz...

# 11:12 PM

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Mariah Carey - Through The Rain

When you get caught in the rain
With nowhere to run
When you're distraught
And in pain without anyone

When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't find you way home
Your can get there alone It's okay
Once you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraidI hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down
Don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
Once you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you
You'll never pull through
Don't hesitate
Stand tall and say
Yeah yeah yeahhhh

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
Can stand up once again
And I'll live one more day, and I
I can make it through the rain
Oh yes you can
You're gonna make it through the rain.

don ask me y but i'm just not in the mood ...

# 11:47 PM