Wednesday, November 15, 2006
....friends....sch...world ??
this few days isn't as bad cause i busy with sch work other than the stress to complete before camp... well my class has become around 35 people to around 30 and now more people are quiting y ??? i also don know ... to me i did thought of this question of quiting my course but than again i went through so many assigments and late nights stress and i give up hope on quiting ... my as well finish this course and get into poly .... preservance is the key i think ... well watever just have a cert for show also can lor .... beside i don really have a future so ya take one step at a time lor or just do wat i need to do and the rest is up to God to do it...
last week i was very bored and up sad .... well some idiot ask me out and in the end in the afternoon than tell me not free watever man luckly he didn tell me where to meet and time... than some one ps me the very next day i ended up eating cup noodles ... than again i told my classmates that i wanted to watch flash away with them and ya they ended up watching it without me stupid right.... well i ask someone out she wanted to cancel her meeting so i said nvm well that one i cant blame cause i msg the night before only well that week is a sucky week ... i always wonder when my friends need anything i will always do my best even though i don want to do anything but when i need someone i couldn find any ... y is it that only when i really upset or something than there is concern??? than when i just want people to be around me there wont be ... what kind of world is this ???? wat kind of life do i have ???
well almost everyone is having their holidays now and i stuck in sch doing lots of project... i have 2 projects and their dateline are on the same date which is 27 nov and i left with 8 days to finish it. got to complete it before the camp cause i don want to worry anything during the camp... its a camp that i want to put all my heart and soul to it and those 3days are for God .... i might not bring any books to study cause firstly i said the 3 days are for God secondly it will only add weight to my bag and thirdly i doubt there might be time to study ... ya well i not thinking anything about the camp cause the only thing in my mind is my stupid projects and that i need to finish it within 8 days .... i doubt that i might have any energy to do when i come home and beside the dateline is the next day ya....
one thing that is good so far is that my guitar is tune and that when i'm tired bored or any thing can play it ...its the best that actually happen so far ... well my parents are not home yet every other person in the house hold other than me are slping ya this family is just like it has use to be a hotel when its night or when u tired u slp other than that i doubt that anyone will be at home... which is good and bad ... good i can play music as loudly as i want and play my guitar without any one laughting... bad cause no one share any problem with any one like me i wont look for anyone of them if i'm in depresstion or stress or anything.... its just family .... no one cares .... sometimes i wish i could grow up soon to leave this place and go overseas leaving this place with all the hurt and suffering and stuff... but on the other side its a place where i grow up and my birth place and family and friends... haiz... life have to decide what to do .... well the easy way of thinking live now and let God do the rest only he knows wat i'm going to become and when i will die and stuff so shouldn think so much ....
well i was thinking dec will be a month when 2 of my pillar wont be around the two that have given me advice and stuff wont be around ... well one is going overseas for 3weeks and the other will be in army ... so in dec must be indepandent ... well i also don know what will be install for me this dec so all i have to do is prepare for the worst to come .... well i believe that if i can be happy for this month i can over come alot of things on my own ... which i think i can i probably stay at home and be emo...
well i will end here i wont know when is the next time i will update may be when mac ask me to update or somthing .....
